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Friday, July 18, 2003 Mudslides, a guy named Cheeto, Sublime, and partying all night On Saturday I had a blastor at least. This chick Jackie had a open house. It was great stupid me brought some of my friends and they just sat there on the couch in the living room while myself and everyone had a great time. I think that was a first real high school party they have ever been to and the irony is that there not in high school. Well its gonna suck for them in college if they dont know how to handle themselves in social situations where they dont know any one. Well besides the wallflowers (hee hee who even called ppl that anymore) everyone had a fuckin good ass time. I drank like a fish Ive never drank that much ever Im so glad that I didnt blow chunks every where (romantic sounding isnt) but I had the worse hangover in my inter life (that consisting of 18 years) damn it was bad. The next night Kasey had a few ppl at her house and it was like 8 p.m and I still could feel my head throbbing. I got a new job, in the city. Its great Im doing visuals and set design for a furniture show room. Its like a temp job. But Im racking in the big bucks. The only thing that sucks about it, is the commute. Shit I hate it. The subway fuckin sucks sometimes. especially when ppl urinate all over the seats or they throw up on the train and it fuckin reeks. Damn I hate that shit. Well its Friday now. And I still havent told you about the john mayer, counting crows and maroon 5 concert. Well I cant tell you about it now. Cuz Im going to a giants game. And Im out mel Sunday July 13, 2003Television man is crazy saying we're juvenile delinquent wrecksWell Billy rapped all night about his suicide How he kick it in the head when he was twenty-five Speed jive don't want to stay alive When you're twenty-five And Wendy's stealing clothes from Marks and Sparks And Freedy's got spots from ripping off the stars from his face Funky little boat race Television man is crazy saying we're juvenile delinquent wrecks Oh man I need TV when I got T Rex Oh brother you guessed I'm a dude dad All the young dudes (Hey dudes) Carry the news (Where are ya) Boogaloo dudes (Stand up Come on) Carry the news All the young dudes (I want to hear you) Carry the news (I want to see you) Boogaloo dudes (And I want to talk to you all of you) Carry the news Now Lucy looks sweet cause he dresses like a queen But he can kick like a mule it's a real mean team But we can love oh yes we can love And my brother's back at home with his Beatles and his Stones We never got it off on that revolution stuff What a drag too many snags Now I've drunk a lot of wine and I'm feeling fine Got to race some cat to bed Oh is there concrete all around Or is it in my head Yeah And Im out. I think that made my point Mel Saturday, July 12 2003
Nathans funeral/ memorial service was last weekend. I didnt know him but him and christen were best of. God I felt so bad for her. I cant say I exactly know what she feeling probably lonely-ness. I did the best I could do to comfort her. But is there really much you can do in times like these. And Im out Mel Monday, July 07, 2003 Its nice to sleep with someone with out having to actually sleep with them. Ive been having so many emotions right now I dont know what I really should be feeling. I mean I wont say that I dont love the attention cuz I do. This Is what always wanted oh god have I wanted this attention for so long but you know what. Is it my time right now cuz now that its here I dont think Im ready for it. Does that make sense? I know that you dont exactly understand what Im talking about right now. But if I dont talk to you who am I suppose to talk to. Well besides all my confusion everything else is fabulous. At the moment really feeling: the new hot hot heat CD Love: the new Michelle branch song Hate: I fucking hate my job and fucking everyone that works there it is pure hell! Durning: the clueless soundtrack And Im out now that Ive gotten you all caught up! Love mel why there is no other man in my life. well thats easy http://www.dietcoke.com/commercials.shtml?id=1 You have to go to this site and you have to watch it. Its the most amazing, wonderful this Ive seen in so long. I hope you appreicaiate it as much as I have! Love mel HAPPY 4th of JULY! Saturday, July 05, 2003 I just had one of the best nights/ days of my life! Wow! Where do I begin well it was Steves and Pauls birthday yesterday as well as the 4th. So Paul and Steve had a birthday and 4th picnic which was fun I didnt stay long cuz I got food poisoning and I was hella sick. So well anyways so there was that BBQ as well as a bunch of others that I didnt make cuz I was sick. But then we went to Laurens aunts house in the Oakland hills and it was great. Her view was AMAZING!! I mean we all watched about 7 firework shows all at once! Wow what a sight! And just a shit load of ppl just showed up it was great! Just fabulous! Then all us after the fireworks went back to Kaseys house and had a phat ass party at her place. Everyone I mean everyone got wasted. It was the best party Id been to in a long ass time! I got so wasted but not as much as Lo. Damn that girl fucking made out with everyone. I fucking mean everyone! And everyone was so horny. Damn its like you could cut the sex in the air with a knife. (what did that make sense) well anyways it was a blast. That party fosure pumped me up for the rest of the summer! I just cant wait to see what else it will bring me. Well its 8:18 am and I just got back from Kass I didnt get a wink of sleep last night. And <yawn> Im exhausted and Im calling in sick to work anyways so . Good morning. And good night! And Im out mel "Most people walk in and out of your life, but only FRIENDS leave footprints in your heart." hey kids, well its been an over whelming Ive been working like a dog but hey money is money. Today was my first day off in a while and kasey, lo, bina and I all went to Capitola and Santa Cruz today it was so great and chill. I really wasnt one of those bonding days it was one of those lets be chill and hang out and not really talk but just be with each other. So we drove to Capitola in kaseys moms convertible it was soooo sweet. I mean dude it was hella tight! Then we tanned on the beach and then we headed to downtown Santa Cruz and went vintaging and music shopping. It was fun and simple. Some may even call it simple fun! Ok thas all And Im out Mel Just a silly lil survey I thought would be fun to do! Have you ever? 1. Ate a bug? Probably 2. Bungee jump? NO, BUT I WANT TO! 3. Hang glide? NO BUT I DEFINATELY WOULD 4. Kill someone? NAH thats not really my style 5. Had sex with someone you don't love? This question doesnt apply to me 6. Kiss someone of the same sex? Yep a girl was my first kiss I know thats sad 8. Parachute from a plane? No Im chicken 9. Walk on hot coals? Um no thats kinda stupid 10. Go out with someone for their looks? Yes. I know Im shallow 11. For their reputation? no 12. Been a vegetarian? Have I been a vegetarian. I think I still am 13. Wear plaid with stripes? WHEN I WAS LITTLE I BET I DID. And in the early 90s that was cool 14. Ask someone out? Yes I have balls 15. Sing karaoke? HELL YEA! AINT NO MOUNTIAN HIGH ENOUGH.... 16. Get drunk off your ass? WELL THAT DEPENDS ON WHAT YOU MEAN BY 'OFF YOUR ASS'.... ::MAYBE:: 17. Shoplift? YES BUT IM NOT PROUD OF IT 18. Run a red light? NO, BUT I'VE RAN A FEW STOP SIGNS IN MY DAY. I RUN ONE EVERYDAY ON MY WAY TO WORK 19.Star in porn? NOPE. BUT IVE WATCHED SOMEONE STAR IN A PORN 20. Dye your hair blue? NOPE BUT I DID RED. DOES THAT COUNT. OK NO IM SORRY 21. Be on Survivor? UM OK STUPID QUESTION BEING THAT ONLY 40 OR SO CAN ANSWER YES 22. Wear makeup in public? YEA. 23. NOT wear makeup in public? YEP. 24. Cheat on a test? I'M SURE I HAVE. HOW THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL 25. Make someone cry? IDK. MAYBE. 26. Call your math teacher a "cracka"? I FEEL IS QUESTIONS COMES FROM SOMEONES OWN EXPERIENCE 27. Kick a baby? WHAT KINDA SICK QUESTION IS THAT. 28. Date someone more than ten years older than you? NO EWW THEY WOULD BE ALMOST 30 29. Buy used clothing? YEP JUST WENT VINGATING TODAY. 30. Cuss out a priest? NOPE IVE NEVER EVEN MET A PRIEST.. NOW THAT POPE THATS SOMEONE ID LIKE TO MEET 31. Take a job as a janitor? UM NO 32. Wear a tho-tho-tho-tho-thong? *LOOKS AROUND SHYLY.YES IM WEARING ONE NOW. BUT THATS JUST BETWEEN ME AND YOU 33. Stay up all through the night? YES YES I HAVE ONLY TWICE 34. Drunken straight espresso? YEP IN A SIDEWALK CAFÉ IN PARIS HOW ROMANTIC 35. Use lame Internet expressions in actual conversation? SOMETIMES JUST SO SPIECE UP THE CONVOJK. SEE LIKE THAT! 36. Pee in a pool? YEAH WHEN I WAS LIL AND I WAS AT SWIM MEETS ID GET SO NERVOUS BEFORE I HAD TO RACE SO I PEED IM SO SORRY. I WAS LIL THATS THE ONLY EXCUSE I HAVE 37. Knowingly eat dog? What the fuck kinda question is that *shit face 38. Read for fun? Yep especially in the summer when I have no life 39. Wish on a falling star? Actually Ive only seen one shooting star in my life and I was so excited that I forgot to wish I did wish like 20 min but I dont think that counts 40. Hide from someone for the fun of it? Isnt that called hide-and-go-seek "her face makes the day begin" Thursday, July 24, 2003 So its 11:18 at night and Im tired and I just came back from christens house hangin out with her and stacy. It was cool. I had a good weekend these are all the things I did I went to IKEA it was great Ive never been there befor and it was quite an experience! I got like the essential stuff for my dorm! Im excited and scared and its moving my so fast even though I know its only the second week of summer. Well Ive been working hell of these past weeks. Well its not that Ive been working a lot of says its Ive been working so many hours they give me like 4 days a week but like 9 hour days! What the fuck is up with that! Seriously! Well its only been two weeks of summer but I already really miss everyone. But I havent talk to anyone except john Courtney, Kasey, Hannah, Valia, Stacy and christen I think thats it. I guess only the important people! Ok Im sorry that was mean, but the truth hurts! Well I dont know what else to really write. Im tired! <yawn> Have a good night! And I'm out Mel thursday, june 19 2003 "Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life youve imagined."- Henry David Thoreau My senior year is over and for some reason I feel like I should have the answers. Answers to what, you wonder. Well, to everything. After all, its time to go out and away form what is safe and familiar, and into new and fantastic places. To pay attention to our most lasting dreams and to follow them to the furthest extent they will take us; and even then, still further. But I dont have answers. Rather, I have questions. What is it like to sip streaming hot coffee at the counter of a towns only diner? What sounds does the water make as it flows past the left bank of the seine river at noon on a fresh summer day? How do people do that trick were they pretend to remove there our thumb? Will I ever sit next to a famous movie star on a red-eye flight to Vegas? How embarrassing does it feel to see yourself doing the Macarena on diamond vision at an As baseball game? Will outer space tourism become commonplace in my lifetime? Is skydiving really the ultimate adrenaline rush? Do dogs really understand how much we love them? Will there ever de another televisions show as good as friends? Are New York bagels really that much better? Where will I be when they announce the next president? Where will I be when they announce the next presidential assassination? Will people cry in the streets like 1963? Will I ever take up residence in Iowa, or small Alaska town, where I will shop at a general store and wear hiking boots in public because theyre just functional? Am I destined to lust after material status, living near culture and Nordstrom? Does it matter? What does it feel like to say forever: and truly mean it? It is possible to truly mean it? Was Romeo actually in love with Rosalin, and merely lusting after Juliet? Can money really buy happiness, even just a little bit? These are all things I wonder about, things that I will wonder about until I see them and feel them and experience them, living life. And while the questions will always keep coming, now its time for me to go out and start finding their answers. "All our lives we search for someone to love, someone who makes us complete. We chose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope all in the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there is someone searching for us." Tuesday, June 17, 2003 Wow. Im surprised Im feeling it right now! I didnt think I would come so soon but its here. Its sooo here! <- these arent explination points of happiness its more shock. Do you really wanna know what Im talking about now I know that you do!! I know you do! Well Im kinda tired so Ill write more about it tomorrow Im so sorry! Everyone have a great night sleep. And Im out Mel "You can get much further with a kind word and a gun than you can with a kind word alone."~Al Capone. "Kiss the rain whatever you need me, kiss the rain when ever I am gone too long. If your lips feel hungry and thirsty, kiss the rain and wait for the dawn." 6/ 15/03. Hi, I graduation on Friday. It was great! I had such a good no great time. I mean grad. was the usual. Speeches. walking.diplomas..blah blah blah. Well anyways after the graduation I ran over to EMP and drove to the other side.. got naked! Hee hee! Of no I didnt I just changed in my car, then drove back to school for the all knighted. (yeah thats the way its spelled) I had a blast. And Im sooo glad cuz during graduation I got my self hella pumped well heres all the things I did: I did a lot a lot a lot of crafts!!!, I played blackjack, I played the slops, I watched karaoke, I played fozz ball, I sumo wrestled, I rode the toilettes. I played American gladiators and a whole bunch of other shit! It was soo great I will never forget that night and I will never for get my friends. Oh oh wish me luck today is my first day at work. Tell me who, could stop my heart as much as you. Friday, June 13, 2003 Well today is graduation day! It seems so surreal. I just cant believe it but Im not going say that it went by so fast cuz I really didnt. Im starting to get a lil nervous. Lil butterflies in my tummy. I have to leave for graduation practice soon too. I went to my friend Stacys graduation with christen, nickie and jen last night. It was nice. it got me excited about mine. Then after I went ritus for a lil get together. It was sweet and simple. Tell me why, I love you like I do. I just needed to bust of in song cuz Im watching mad about you right now. I like this show its so good! Well I got to go get ready to go to grad. Practice like it told you above. I prolly wont update till tomorrow cuz tonight is grad night!! Cant wait.. Ill write all about it. Oh oh and before I leave I got a job I start Sunday. I hope all goes well I get $9 and hour woohoo thats pretty good for retail. Well I hope you have a great day! Love mel
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